It’s wintery days like this that I miss you the most… 

I love you like a love song baby.

and I keep hitting repeat.

Even if it hurts. 

but it doesn’t stop it just keeps growing…

I’ve never loved so much in my life.

Now it seems like it never happened.

But then I see him and it hits me all over again like being hit by a train. 

I just want to feel happy again and it’s so hard when I just feel so damn incomplete. 

I don’t even know where to place the blame anymore.

I guess I can say put the blame on me. 

I hope you get better, I pray for you… 

I love you even in my darkest times…  

but you can put the blame on me

I know now that things had to end. But I am so incredibly sorry, horrified and appalled  about the way that they did. I’m sorry for hurting you so much and for making your world so dark. I’m sorry  that when you see me its only the things I did badly that pop into your head. I’m sorry for doing what I did and for hurting you so deeply. I swear to you I’m not a bad person. I was just incredibly hurt, hopeless and lost. If you can ever see that I’m sure you will find it in your heart to forgive me. If not then maybe you didn’t love me as much as you said you did. Because I do love you, I will always love you but I will pretend to be invisible if that’s what you want. Pretend it never happened, it was all just a dream.